Lonely strength

It's lonely being the strong one all the time. Sometimes I wish I wish I could confide in someone without any hesitation or bad consequences. To explore my dreams and goals and to relieve my frustrations.

Maybe receive comfort, not pity not concern but genuine comfort.
I know a few people close to me vent to me and I gladly offer a kind ear as well as advice properly thought out for their own sake.

I wish it was my turn to vent and talk about whatever I want to talk about and have it accepted as something not negative.

I wonder if they will one day walk up to me and ask what is wrong, will I just say I'm fine?
I may need help from someone completely willing to help me myself as always I cannot burden my friends family and lover with my problems they have so many of their own already.

All I can do is be strong even when I need someone the most.
My own inner strength will carry me through no matter what.
Even if I'm tired even if I'm stressed.
How am I to lead the people If I am not to tend to them and make sure they're ok.
This is what a true nobleman strives for.
To not just have power over the people the only reason they are there born into it is to help aid the people.

Especially those I cherish and the one I love as well. Thinking of them gives me strength, when the people are happy with my help that gives me strength.

As a Kami this is my true strength, through the belief others have in me as well as that I have in myself.

By the Gods I love her.